Loads of memories!!

Feels like its a new life,
After leaving the people with whom I lived these many years,
After leaving the place where I worked for these many years,
After leaving the talks that I had with all these many years.

Feels like its a new life,
When I wake up in the morning to find that I'm not going to that place any more,
When I talk to people and say about what I'm doing now,
When I sleep in the night thinking about the next day schedule which is different now.

Feels like its a new life,
When I call my friends just to ask how are they now,
When I hear from them that they miss me,
When I tell them that I'm doing great when I'm not.

Its a new life altogether!
Thank you to the people who made me so special. Thank you for missing me when i'm not there with you all. Thank you for creating wonderful memories with me. Lastly, thank you for being with me!! Missing each one of you.. my team.. my co-workers everybody!!

This is to the people whom I call friends more than my colleagues!! :)

Once upon a time..

Its been ages that I haven't gone to my native.
and here the week has finally come that I have been long expecting for..
In another 2 weeks I will be there. :D

I miss those people with whom I used to enjoy my life, I miss those places which I often used to visit, I miss those wonderful times that I had with my beloved ones.
I have been missing it from so many months.

One thing that I miss which I would never get back is my childhood days!!
I love that times but I know I can never get back to those days..
But I do have those lovely memories with me which I can treasure it for my whole life.

I bet everybody feels the same like me about "Childhood Days" :)
Donald Zolana's few paintings on early Childhood:

The Episode runs!!

2000,
Ehh? What is friendship day? Enjoy and celebrate being friends? Oh, I didnt knew this!

2002,
Self prepare a friendship band, tie to all my friends! I wanna prove that I'm their friend and I like to see the band what I make for them tied on their hands. Oh yeah, I expect my friends tie it to me too! I am their friend, ain't I?

2004,
I will tie it only to my best friends! No no, she is not my close friend. I will tie only to the people who are close to me and who will in return tie it to me..

2006,
Hey, its friendship day celebration. Lets all wear yellow color dresses and enjoy freaking out. How about a movie? Cool.. Lets all have fun! Its our day to enjoy together.

2008,
Hey, Yeh, I'm coming! Yes for sure.. I have put leave for two days and I will be there on that day. We will go out and have lunch together and may be we can watch some movie if not, go to beach and enjoy! After all, its our day to enjoy. Lets rock!

2009,
Hmmm?? Oh is it? Coming sunday? I want to come but I will not be able to make time and come there. I miss you all a lot and if you all would have been here, it would have been so much fun. We could have enjoyed our day! I guess, this time I have to spend friendship day all alone here!

Friends are special, they walk with us in the journey of life. Some take other route and go away and some stay with us. Still they all are my friends. I enjoy their company. I enjoy talking to them. I like to spend time with them. When I have something to share I have with them around me. When I feel like crying, I have them near by me. When I want to laugh out loudly, they too accompany me. When I want to enjoy my day, they come with me. I have them near to me in my heart. The best thing in life are the people called as "friends" who stays with you for whatever you are.

Every year when the time of celebrating friendship day comes, I get all excited. I feel like I'm enjoying and rejoicing their company with me for so long! But sometimes, we might not get an opportunity to celebrate the time together! Like this year, I want to celebrate it with my close buddies but they are very far as of now! I will not be able to meet them this time!
But but, I promise them that next time when we meet up, lets freak out and enjoy ourselves. That day would be just ours! I don't mind whether that would be the friendship day or whatever it is. I just want to be with you all and enjoy your company.

Every stage of life, leaves foot prints on how we came so far! I have made lots of friends in this journey. I have lost few but I have kept many of them safely in my heart.
When I was small, we neighbors were all of same age of mine. We had a good bonding those days that we never knew it was called friendship. We played, fought, laughed, cried and enjoyed being small.. We even complained,abused and scolded each other. I don't have you people near to me now. You all are far off though each of you are still in contact. I miss you people so much! Without you all, my childhood days wouldn't have been fun.

The friends I made in school were not so close to me. I was very different those days and I had thought that all my school mates were my enemies. Though we enjoyed, played and studied together, we had the feeling called as 'hate' between us. Now when I dont have you people near to me, I realize it was just the time and thoughts that made us think like that. I seriously enjoyed being with you all but never thought about it those days. I miss each one of you who were with me for more than 5 to 6 years.

College life was something very serious and funny that I went through. We knew what exactly we were doing, we knew we were enjoying more than we had to. Sleeping and talking during the class hours, mass bunk to watch movies, skip those afternoon sessions only because it was boring, running affairs, helping others to finish the notes, all those canteen talks, big big bundles of xerox notes that looked untouched, studies which never seemed to be ending, every moment of it is still fresh. I will never forget it. I miss all those wonderful times and the close ones with whom I spent my beautiful college life.

And after this phase, every now and then we make new friends. We come across so many people at our work, at our living place, neighbors, blogsville, friends of friends and so on. Few stay close and few walk away. Everytime this day comes up, I start remembering all my friends from the time I was small to the present. Each and every person has made a very deep foot print in my life. I like to treasure them until I'm alive.

2nd August, 2009! The same day again. Year after year I'm still the same, but I have more and more friends who gets close to me day by day. I might not be able to wish them all on this special day. But I remember everyone. I want to thank them here for staying with me, for being with me. I will not be able to meet you all but I can remember you and cherish those memories that I had with you on this day.

Wishing everyone a Very happy friendship day! Enjoy being with friends

The 50km walk!

"Smile-Have you ever noticed how easily puppies make human friends? Yet all they do is wag their tails and fall over." ~Walter Anderson

"When we direct our thoughts properly, we can control our emotions." ~W. Clement Stone

“Thoughts are the shadows of our feelings - always darker, emptier and simpler.” ~Friedrich Nietzsche

My thoughts, my feelings and my smiles are shared with you all here in this blog. When I first created this blog, I had no idea what I would be writing here. I just thought of scribbling few things when I felt like. I had visited few blogs and liked the way they used to write and many more. I kept the name "Reason to Smile" as my blog title without knowing whether I would truly write my reasons for smiling. Gradually, when my posts were increasing I had few people visiting my blog. I was so happy about it and then I started visiting their blogs to see how they write. I enjoyed reading them and writing. I learn't so many things. I got experience to know how and what all a person thinks and write.

I liked writing stories though I was very much a beginner. I had no idea that I can write here stories too. In a short time, I started writing stories and whatever I feel like. Now, this blog includes so many things that I sometimes wonder whether it was me who wrote it. Still, I used to think like how can I improve. Then my dear friends told me to write, practice and experience. I am doing that. I am learning so many things in blogsville. I met so many wonderful people here. Now I don't want to leave this and go. Whenever I'm free, whenever I feel like writing something, I will come here and express my thoughts and my imagination. Also, I would come daily to read posts by all my fellow bloggers who actually gave me a pleasant experience over here!

This is my 50th post and through this post I wanted to tell you all how much each person has drawn a smile on my face. I wouldn't have come up till here today without you all by my side encouraging me. A potful of thanks all of you.

Did anyone observe the title of my blog today? :)
Well, it has changed. I thought I need to give a different meaning and name to my blog after coming this far. So I named it as "Smiles, Thoughts and Feelings within"
Let me know whether you all liked it.
Any suggestions on what name suits my blog is also welcome. I would love to know what kinda names would suit my blog. :)

I enjoy this place. I feel so happy visiting everyone's blog, including myself :P
By the by, did i say thank you to all of you? Guess i did not! ;)
Thank you sooooo much!!

Before I sign off I would like to include few lines from my blog mates who has written something about my blog on my request. It was indeed so special to me to hear wonderful words from them. So here it goes:

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Flowing river will never cum back.
She will see lot of nice places in her journey.
If she is interested,
she might think of staying there
But she wont
as she has a final destination
He is waiting for her
Finally she will join him!

Yes guys Swetha is a river who is in search of the sea which is of smiles and happiness.

She is here to share little smiles and little happiness with you while she is on her way
She is the only reason to smile...;)

By Arun Manipal

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I met this really wonderful person in blogspot and been a fan of her posts ever since.
I really enjoy reading your short stories and I believe that you are a really talented writer too.. One of my favorite posts in ur blog is the "Friendship Never Ends" series.

Keep up the good work and keep writing down

By Vaisakh

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Nimma blog yeshtondu sandharbagallalli nanna naguvige kaarana.. dhanyavaadagalu.. hehe.. sry.. back to English …. On one of my very boring days, I was onto my usual stuff ; reading through blogs and that’s when I landed onto this place. Your fiction stories, your heartfelt gestures, your concerns makes you and this blog that much so adorable. And moreover for me, finding bloggers from Bangalore’s so exciting. Anyway, keep this blog going, your thoughts flowing, your wishes flying, for this Blog is called- Smiles, Thoughts and Feelings within.

By Arjun Choudhary

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So very nice of Arun, Vaisakh and Arjun for writing these lines for me!! Thanks a bunch!
A small bunch of flowers to you three from my side.. :D

A SpEcIaL OnE!

She is the one because of which I'm here today...
She gave me an opportunity to grow in this world..
She was there with me whenever I wanted someone to be with me..
She comforted me when I cried, smiled with me when I laughed...


She supported me for all of my walks in this life...
She gave me moral support when things went wrong and against me...
She was there everytime when I wanted to share my feelings...
She always made yummy and wonderful recipes to make us feel happy...

She cried when I was left alone without her in some other city...
She was ready to talk for hours and hours on phone, when I was bored...
She gave me all the tips and ideas when I wanted it..
She helped me for anything to everything..


She is the one who always will be there in my heart! How much ever we fight with each other, we always are together.. and i love her so much!! Nobody can fill her space.. and I call her "mamma" ..
Mother is always a special person and her place can never be filled by anyone else..

Mamma, I know you are very sad knowing that grandma passed away! I know how much you loved her. I know what place she had in your heart. I know how much you loved her.
Coz I too am a daughter..
Just wanted to tell you that I'm always there with you.. and I always want to see you happy and smiling! :)

Grandma, I so very miss you and I'm sorry that I couldn't see you during your last days.
Also, I'm very thankful to you for giving me such a wonderful mom! You might not know how best your daughter is but I know how best my mamma is! :D

P.S: I got these pictures through mail from one of my friend. I thank her for sending it.
P.P.S: I am not down on earth now! Just that I was so happy checking these pics that I felt like conveying my message to my mamma through this blog! (If i tell her all these infront of her, she might think something is wrong with her daugther.. :P )

Expressing...

He wrote in his diary...

Dear Indu,

I am the happiest person today coz u smiled at me. I was waiting for this very day. After 3 years of me knowing you without making you realize it, and to get the smile which is equal to thousands of those stars smiling at me when am lonely in this world without you. I know you are the angel from fairy land who came to me. I realized it long back and wanted to make sure that you yourself will smile at me one day. I dont want you to remember me. I am far from your life now.

It was just those three days of my life that was so special when you were with me.
You had lost your memory and you were stuck in that bus sitting next to me. I took great care of you and had fallen in love with you. I had taken you to the top of those mountains where that small village was. We stayed there for three days and at last you said you liked me. I was in the heaven and was overjoyed. It was that night when you were talking in your dreams that I found out you were already engaged. Engaged with the love of your life. I came to know the truth that you both were in so much love and had come for a holiday trip with him. You had lost your way in between those woods and was hit by a branch of the tree and you lost memory. You said everything in your dreams. I realized I was not the one for you. I asked one of those villagers to take you to the hospital and give the best treatment possible to regain back your memory. Everything happened as I wanted. Your memory came back and you forgot me. You went back to your love.

I realized that we were working in the same company too. I was happy seeing you daily. I forgot all my pain, your smiles gave me energy to live, your voice made me to feel that you are near to me. But I always wanted you to smile at me and you did it today. Thank you very much for that. God will always be with you coz I have already prayed him to take great care of you and he will.

Yours forever
Varun

P.S: Am completely getting involved in fiction these days! not sure, why.. but getting addicted to it.. :)

He stood there...

He stood there gazing at her when it was raining, remembering the past when he used to dance with her when it used to rain.

Now everything has changed. Being a husband and a father, he controlled his feelings towards his first crush who was his life before. She was unaware of him watching her.

my second effort on 55 fiction.. :)
you can find my first effort of 55 fiction here.. {which was written as a guest post for princess sonshu :)}

in btw, Kajal had awarded me the golden heart award few days back.. thanks a lot Kajal.. :)
also, Nikhil has given me two awards.. one is the sweet sister and another is cutest blogger award! Thanks a lot to u too, bro!
one more award from Sam, which is called free spirited award! Thanks a bunch, sam! :)
luv ya loads! :D
am displaying all the awards on the right side bar of my blog ... :)

Arrival..

She got a call early in the morning. Her close buddy had called up giving a pleasant surprise that she is coming to India that night.

Kavya was so happy. Her best friend, Swati who had gone to Dubai three years back was coming to India after such a long time. She took leave from her office for another 3 days. She cleaned her house excited about her friends arrival. By evening, everything was clean and tidy. She had already cooked special dishes for her very special friend.

She drove to the airport with a bunch of white roses. The flight arrived 3 hours late but Kavya waited eagerly for her friend. At last, the flight arrived and she could see her friend walking towards her. She could hardly believe it was her. Swati had grown fat and completely changed from classic to ultra modern style.

Swati indeed was happy to see her old friend too. Swati hugged her friend and then they could hardly speak anything as their eyes were filled with tears and love.

They reached back home talking at top of their voices about so many things.

They had a lovely dinner talking restlessly. They indeed missed all those college time fun and happiness but they were happy that they could recall all those memories.

Next 2 days they spent their time together hanging around, going for movies, visiting friends houses and temples. The 3 days went so soon. Swati had to go back to Dubai and the time had come for her to move on. The last day was so sad that they were quiet dull. When they came to the airport, Kavya gave her a gift and so did Swati. Swati opened the gift and was happy to see a teddy bear. Kavya wanted the teddy bear to be with her always so that whenever swati would miss kavya, she can hug the teddy bear. Swati had given a beautiful watch and told that whenever she sees the time she would remember swati.

Then the excitement ended. It was time for Swati to depart. She hugged Kavya for the last time and she departed.

The first raindrops..

She was awakened when the lights went off. She saw the clock and it said 11 PM. "I must have slept early while reading the book", Maya thought to herself.

She got up, lit the candle and made sure that all the doors and windows are shut. She laid on the sofa and tried to relax when suddenly she heard the waving sound from outside. She was not sure what it was and hence, opened the balcony door and saw that it was breezing very much outside. She stood there enjoying the cool breeze. It started drizzling and she could feel the water drop falling on her face. She closed her eyes and said "I love this".

As she opened her eyes, she was there standing with her sister enjoying the first rain of the year. Her dad shouting from behind "You girls are crazy to get wet. Please come in! If not, you will catch cold"
"No pappa. We luv this. It is the first rain of the year. Don't you know how we enjoy watching this everytime. We will come in soon." she answered.

Maya always loved the first drops falling from the sky and the aroma of the ground when the first rain drops falls down. It's completely a different smell and it makes her go and dance right on the middle of the road!

She was now dancing with her sister rejoicing the wonderful rain that she always likes. She waved to the people who were rushing to their respective homes. She could see her neighbor friend sipping hot coffee sitting near the window. She looked at her and smiled. She turned back to see her dad starring at her angrily but she gave back her cunning smile and made her dad smile back. She closed her eyes and said once again "I love this so much" .

As she opened her eyes once again, she could see herself all alone standing next to the door of her balcony in the beautiful apartment where she stays. It was the same first rain of the year and she was smiling watching it pouring down. She was standing there but dancing in her heart, humming a melodious slow song, remembering her childhood. She felt like she heard her dad shouting but turned to see no one there. She smiled once again. She smelt the same aroma that she always liked. She felt like walking and running in the rain but she couldn't do it. But she was happy to see the first rain... the very same first rain that she always enjoyed to see... and then she told to herself.. "I love this so much!"

Thus a year passed by!

April... the same month, just a year ago was the time when I came to Bangalore.. I was excited and happy when I came here. In the same time, I was scared too.. It was a new place for me then.

I came to Bangalore for few reasons.. To escape from someone, :P to find peace, to get out of the boring job that I was working before, to study further. Al together, I set my goals with many reasons in my mind and came to Bangalore!!

With a good job here, staying as Paying guest, life went on as I wanted for few weeks!
Later, I realized that things are not always as what we wish it would be. Working for long hours was one of the reason which made me feel very tired and put me under frustration. I used to wait for weekends to make myself work-free! but weekends were much worst than weekdays. No friends here in the new place. Hanging out alone? naah, am not crazy! so I used to sit back at ma room and read novels..

I somehow tried to find a way and I made friends with few people around... Got along with few groups and my colleagues. Enjoyed freaking out.. Explored new things in this new place. Experienced many things. Went for few treks, outings, was just hanging out! It was fun all the while. Life went on and I kept myself busy with one or the other things.. with so many plans and few friends here, I used to enjoy each and everything. In btw, used to miss my parents and my close ones!

Though life went on, life was not easy. My close friend who was my roomie shifted her place. It was really a bad news as she was very close to me and she had given me company all the while. It was difficult to live without her as it was very boring and lonely. I had to digest the fact that she would be leaving Bangalore. Thought of shifting the room and searched a new one.

Whenever I used to feel homesick, I would sit alone.. hear some sad music and cry to myself.
When I get time, I used to fly off to my hometown to meet my parents and enjoy there. That was not so often.

I'm adjusting and compromising for each and everything here. Coz one day I want to go back to my place with a happy face! I have to to achieve what I had thought and that is possible only here. I have to make time for studies, work and enjoyment. :)

Bangalore has given me life, enjoyment, friends, job... the list goes on. But it has taken away from me.. my happiest life that was in Manipal(my hometown).. It has made me live far from my loved ones! I miss everything out there.. especially my parents and my sweet home.
Not sure whether I have to thank for what I have or be sad for what I don't have with me..!


Whatever it is...
a year has passed..!
memories will remain for sure....!!!

Those were the days !!!

Morning when I was walking today, I found two kids walking to school. As I started observing them closely, I noticed that they were in some conversation about one of their friend. I was smiling to myself thinking about my life during their age and then I was lost in memories of my good old days!

At the age of 10, what was I? Lol.. I was a kid.. a small tiny kid without a brain. I can remember few things though it is not so clear. I used to go to school in an auto with my neighbor friends. Naa. They were mostly my enemies than my friends. But yeah, we enemies were playing and having fun together. I used to cry when my mom used to feed me in the morning coz I used to hate eating! And then I was rushing to my school. In the evening, I would quickly finish up my "Milo" and then go to play. At sharp 7, my mom used to come shouting and asking me to finish playing and start studying.. I used to hate '7 o'clock" those days.

At the age of 14, I was quite grown up. I knew how to behave properly. I had made new friends in my new colony. But the fun what I had in my old place was not present. It was very much different here. Playing time comes when we want. If we feel like playing at 8 in the night, we used to go out and ask all to join us and then start some kind of wierd games. And most of the times, we end up talking and running here and there.

During holidays, it was very much fun. We used to plan so many things before the exam finishes. We neighbor friends wake up early do yoga, then skipping and at last cycling early in the morning. By around 9, we will pack up and go to our homes. Again, at 11 or 12, you would find us together at one of anyones house doing some craft work or painting or stitching. After lunch log off to sleep and then go to swimming at around 4.30 PM. Come back at 6.30 and go for cycling again or chit chat with friends. If not, play badminton!! So many things we used to do during those times.....

Ahhhh... Those were flash back memories.. does that happen now? not at all.. that life is gone for sure!! its difficult to get those days back.. those talks, those plays, those silly fightings with friends is what I miss in my present life!!
Those were the best days of my life that I realized after losing it.. Cheers to those friends of mine with whom i had lots of fun and there are few who are very far from me and I have lost their contact.. seriosuly i miss those too..
I wish I could relive those days again !!!